Diet

Alright folks here we go again!!!! I went to the doctor the other day for my yearly checkup. They took my temperature, oxygen level, and then the moment that I dread... The SCALE!!!! I know at the beginning of this year I wrote how I was going to do this diet and lose a thousand pounds and how I was determined and it was actually going to happen. I failed, I failed miserably. I was doing really well I had lost ten pounds and felt so good about myself. Then life happened and somehow that got in the middle of things. So here I am standing on that terrible scale watching for that  horrible number. With no surprise I had gained my ten pounds back. I was not happy. Well sitting in the patient  room waiting for the doctor to come in I noticed a little sign on the wall that read  "Ask me how U can get healthier." So when the doctor came in I did. She proceeded to tell me that there were many resources available to those that needed that extra little push. That is what I need. I need that little extra push. I feel like I can do it, I want to do it, but I need that something extra. There is a nutritionist that works at the clinic one day a week. She sits down with you once a month and makes a diet and exercise plan just for you. And the best part about it is it's free. You don't even have to pay a dime.
        So it is official, I am going to start this diet tomorrow. I feel like I have the determination, will power, and now I have that little bit of extra help. I know that I have  promised myself this many times. But I have to do this for me. This is the one thing that I can control in my life. This is the one thing that I think will make me feel better about myself. Let the dieting begin!!!



                                                                          

Trials!!!!

I now understand what people mean by the first year of marriage is one of the hardest. Gabe and I have been married for almost a year now. I have to say that more things have happened in this last year then in my entire life. When we got married I was so caught up in happiness, joy and love that I never thought about the future. With Gabe not being a citizen we faced legal trials. We had to fork out tons of money, tons of paperwork and tons of waiting. In the beginning I would find myself discouraged, depressed, sad and even tired. I knew at some point we would get through this. That somehow things were going to be alright. 6 long months later there was light at the end of the tunnel. We had made it together we had gotten passed the worst or so I thought. I began to feel relieved that Gabe was now a resident, that I no longer had to worry about the government taking him away from me. Our life then began to go down the smooth path. Suddenly we are back on the rough path. It's rocky, it's scary, it's depressing, and most of all it's hard. I know that somehow someway things are going to be alright. That we can make it together. For the time being the feelings of being depressed, discouraged, sad and even tired have all come back. I think that often times we as human beings have an image of what our life should be like. And when things don't turn out the way that you have visioned, we ask why???? I have asked myself this question for the last few weeks and I have yet to find the answer. I am not sure if we ever do find the answer to that question.  I have heard the saying a lot lately "God won't give you anything you can't handle." I know this situation is temporary, but sometimes I don't know if I can handle it.
       I am not sure how non-members of the church handle trials. I know that my faith, my prayers, and my understanding of Heavenly Father gives me comfort. There have been times in my life that my faith and prayers have not been the greatest. There are times when I am so discouraged that I have a tendency to forget about faith and prayer. When I stop to think about the entire world instead of just myself. There are several people out there that have trials ten times worse than Gabe and I. I am so so so grateful for my family. They are the greatest blessings that I have ever been given. I know that no matter where I am, no matter what I am doing they will always be there for me. I know that sometimes trial seem like an eternity but to Heavenly Father, they are just a moment in time and we can get through it.